Thursday, October 7, 2010

Life is Good.

We all can see that I am no good at this blogging thing, but maybe I will get better. Just maybe.

SO whats new you may ask? Well everyday is new! This life in Dallas is new and its exciting! I have made so many new friends that its crazy! Right before I moved here I told God that this was a crazy idea! Why would he make me move to a place where I knew NO one! Not a single person! Never in my life have I liked to be alone AND I get scared of the unknown very easily! While my parents and brothers were still here helping me unpack I turned to my mom and said, "I hate this! I have never been so scared in my life! This isn't home! Take me home!" My poor mother! Now I can laugh at my silliness and say thank you Jesus! Those first few days of being alone scared me to death, but you know who never left me! Jesus! Soon after moving here He placed some AMAZING people into my life and it feels like they have always been my friends! Thats how close we are. He has used this time to help me figure out who I really am in Him, to prove to me that He is always right beside me, He has shown me more in depth what my gifts are that He has given me to grow His kingdom, He has brought many Christian friends into my life, and among many other things, He has reminded me that when I don't have a clue about what is going on I need to look at him and He will direct my steps!

He is so amazing! One night a few weeks ago there were bad storms here in Dallas. I had just walked into my house(where no one else was) when my friend Lacey called me and told me that a tornado was really close to where I was! Great! I'm alone and I don't have a tv to watch to see if I'm about to get smashed by a tornado!!! Alone and Not knowing what is going on!! I quickly gathered a few things from my upstairs bedroom and went downstairs to be where I thought I would be the safest! Lacey called and texted me with updates on what was going on. As I sat there praying my heart out to God, praying for protection over me, I felt a peace! Peace that only comes from God! Then I realized something...what about the people who aren't Christians and don't have this Peace that I'm talking about? Were they scared through the whole storm? Or were they just chillin out waiting for the storm to pass! I know there were some of both, but my heart goes out to the ones who were scared. I'm being serious, what do they do? Me being curious about this, I wanted to run to all my neighbors and tell them about Jesus and then I thought...probably not a good idea for me to go to random peoples houses in a city that I just moved to especially when there is a storm right above me! Another thing stopping me from running to all my neighbors houses is that Evangelism isn't one of my strong Gifts! I learned this while on several misssion trips, I love to let people know of God's love, but the way I do it is that I SHOW them God's love through actions...My Gifts are Hospitality, Giving, Encouraging, and Administration! Which I have been able to use since moving here. I have met many hurting people that all they wanted was for someone to listen to them, I now work with YoungLife where I get to hangout with some pretty cool teenagers, I have talked to people at school about church and why it is a good reason to be a part of one, I have even been able to help people by using my OCD organizational brain to help them organize their school binder! There are so many doors opening and they arent just cracking open, they are opening WIDE open!

Honestly I think me moving to Dallas was one of the best things that could have happened to me! Something that I saw as such a negative thing turned into such a BIG blessing!

Im just going to share the verse that I claimed as mine for my move and this transition to Dallas then I'll quit rambbling!

Deuteronomy 31:8--"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged!"
I love you all-My Longview and My Dallas family! You are each such a blessing to my life and I thank God for you daily!

Friday, August 20, 2010

A Whole New World

Well here I am. I no longer live in Longview, I have moved about 140 miles west to Dallas, Tx! Everything here is so different and new to me. I feel like I have moved and left everyone that I love and who loves me behind. I know there are a lot of friends to be made here in Dallas, its just hard to see that at the moment. I have cried at least once a day just because in this place I feel alone. There have always been two things that scare me! Those things are being scared(of the unknown) and being alone. In this place I have both. Never in my life have I been so scared! I know living here is where I'm suppose to be and I'm doing what I'm suppose to do. I don't know why it still scares me. Psalms 46:10 says, "Be still and know that I am God" This is what my goal is. God's Love is Big! It's Extravagant! It's Unconditional! He would not send me here if he didnt have a purpose for me here. There is a plan, just at this moment I need to be still and listen and find out what my purpose is. Maybe that purpose is to lead a nonbeliever friend to the Lord, maybe it's to prove to myself that I dont need to be scared or alone, maybe its for the solo purpose of me going to school and graduating with a degree that will help several people in the US or maybe even all over the world. I don't know His reasoning for sending me here, but for the moment thats okay. When its time He will tell me and I will do whatever it is! For the moment I think he is telling me just wait, be still!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Accepted...now what??

School starts in Dallas on August 19th and today is August 1st. I have no idea what is going to happen, I still have no place to live and this is very scary to me! I know God has a plan for me, but what is the plan? Sometimes I wish he would just put a big sign in the sky saying, "Hey you-Becky- go here, you will meet these people, you will live here and you will live happily ever after" Sad thing is, that's not how life is. I'm not very good with being patient and waiting for answers. I never have been, I like to know whats going on and when it will happen. I was up till 2 this morning praying and looking at 1 bedroom apartments just trying to find something. We may be going to Dallas tomorrow to look at some of these apartments and to also pay for school. That's another thing- School has to be completely paid for by Wednesday. This is crazy-I have to move in about 15 days. I have no place to live, but of course there is the option my father told me. He said I could just live under a bridge because that way rent would be free and I would have some neighbors. Well I'm off to look some more for a home. If any of you know of someone that lives in the Richardson/Addison/Plano area that has like a mother-in-law house or a room above a garage or knows of a good apartment-ANYTHING!! Please let me know!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

ACCEPTED!

Well I'm not very good at this whole blogging thing yet, but hopefully I will soon be.

The news from today is that I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED TO UT DALLAS FOR THE FALL SEMESTER!!!! I'm super excited it you cannot tell. I was at work this afternoon when my mom called me and said that I had received a letter from UT Dallas' Office of Admission and Enrollment. I knew she really couldn't wait to know what it said (and honestly neither could I) so I asked her to open it for me. I heard her threw the phone as the opened the letter and then yelled, "You're In" Since that moment I haven't been able to quit smiling or think of anything else. The really cool thing is is that just an hour before my mom called me I began to look in Kilgore's list of classes for the fall. I started praying to God saying that I really didn't want to go to Kilgore again, but if thats where He needed me to be I would go. If that was where I needed to be I prayed that I would have a happy heart because I knew I wouldn't be happy about it at first. I was starting to feel peace about it then my mom called me with the awesome news.

I don't know much more than I will be moving to Dallas sometime in August.
I serve an amazing God. He got me into this school, he and he alone will provide for these new needs that come along with this new college. I'm very excited to see where God takes me in this new chapter of my life:)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Well here I am...I have entered into the blogging world!