A Whole New World

Well here I am. I no longer live in Longview, I have moved about 140 miles west to Dallas, Tx! Everything here is so different and new to me. I feel like I have moved and left everyone that I love and who loves me behind. I know there are a lot of friends to be made here in Dallas, its just hard to see that at the moment. I have cried at least once a day just because in this place I feel alone. There have always been two things that scare me! Those things are being scared(of the unknown) and being alone. In this place I have both. Never in my life have I been so scared! I know living here is where I'm suppose to be and I'm doing what I'm suppose to do. I don't know why it still scares me. Psalms 46:10 says, "Be still and know that I am God" This is what my goal is. God's Love is Big! It's Extravagant! It's Unconditional! He would not send me here if he didnt have a purpose for me here. There is a plan, just at this moment I need to be still and listen and find out what my purpose is. Maybe that purpose is to lead a nonbeliever friend to the Lord, maybe it's to prove to myself that I dont need to be scared or alone, maybe its for the solo purpose of me going to school and graduating with a degree that will help several people in the US or maybe even all over the world. I don't know His reasoning for sending me here, but for the moment thats okay. When its time He will tell me and I will do whatever it is! For the moment I think he is telling me just wait, be still!

Accepted...now what??

School starts in Dallas on August 19th and today is August 1st. I have no idea what is going to happen, I still have no place to live and this is very scary to me! I know God has a plan for me, but what is the plan? Sometimes I wish he would just put a big sign in the sky saying, "Hey you-Becky- go here, you will meet these people, you will live here and you will live happily ever after" Sad thing is, that's not how life is. I'm not very good with being patient and waiting for answers. I never have been, I like to know whats going on and when it will happen. I was up till 2 this morning praying and looking at 1 bedroom apartments just trying to find something. We may be going to Dallas tomorrow to look at some of these apartments and to also pay for school. That's another thing- School has to be completely paid for by Wednesday. This is crazy-I have to move in about 15 days. I have no place to live, but of course there is the option my father told me. He said I could just live under a bridge because that way rent would be free and I would have some neighbors. Well I'm off to look some more for a home. If any of you know of someone that lives in the Richardson/Addison/Plano area that has like a mother-in-law house or a room above a garage or knows of a good apartment-ANYTHING!! Please let me know!