Tears seem to keep running down my face these last few days. Reason for the tears?? CHANGE. FEAR. I have never been good with change. This is something that the Lord has really been working on in me since moving here to Dallas. I like having everything planned out and those plans going through, but they aren't my plans. They are HIS plans! Control. Need to quit trying to control situations. Also don't like good byes, even if they are just see you laters! I've already had to say bye to a few friends and it breaks my heart! More See ya laters coming next week:(
In 9 days I will be making the trip back to Longview for the summer. I will be living with my parents and brothers once again. CHANGE. Leaving the place that has become home. I have started my own life here. What if my friends here forget about me? What if someone takes my place in their lives? I know this sounds retarded! But its the truth! I often have this fear that people will no longer know or love me, but that's not important! That shouldn't even be a thought! MAKE IT A GOAL-HE INCREASES, I DECREASE IN OTHERS LIVES! It doesn't matter if tomorrow anyone remembers a Becky Auran, but they should know Christ and the love that he freely gives. His love is perfect! Not worrying if so-and-so will remember me...NOT IMPORTANT! Let fear and control GO!
Leaving behind my church friends who have become my family-Robert, Charme, Missy, Ryan, Chelsea, Ashley, Josh, Lindsey, Jessica, Linda, Chris, Taylor, Jason, Gabe, Jose, Larry, and Robert. I'm going to miss each of you! And remember--YOU HAVE TO COME TO LONGVIEW TO SEE ME! Thank you for all the time you have each spent pouring into my life since I first walked into Town North that Wednesday night in August! LOVE YOU ALL! Happy to know that when I return in July you will all be here and we will all live close to each other!
UTD School friends...I'm going to miss our cry sessions and our "study" times. We are almost done with school! Soon we will have the opportunity to apply to grad school TOGETHER! So thankful for each of you!
I'm excited to be able to spend time at home. In longview I get to spend time with my family, I get to see all the kids I use to take care of-spend time with them before they too move off and go to college:), I get to be out of the fast life of the city for a short time and just slow down for a while.
Here we go...let the new Journey Begin!
